Monday, August 23, 2010

A Different Side of Me

Hello World out there, and then again maybe no one will ever read this but me. I feel inspired to do a couple of things and share them.

I had a busy day yesterday with teaching the children at church, a calling I feel honored to do, and I take it seriously. Rather too seriously that I tend to worry on the side hoping and praying I am a good example to them and that they are learning the things our Heavenly Father wants them to know.



I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints known as the Mormon church after the Book of Mormon which we believe to be scripture, another witness of Jesus Christ. We believe in the Holy Bible to also be the word of God. We are Christian, which makes sense as the church is named after Him.



We have a living Prophet, President Thomas S. Monson who has been called of God to lead the church today and Twelve Apostles. I was baptized shortly before I turned 16 years old after seriously investigating the teachings and attending meetings off and on since I was about 14 years old. I knew when I joined that as young as I was it still would mean a life style change for the rest of my life.

Around the month of August just a few years ago before the death of our former Prophet Gordon B. Hinckley challenged the members of the church to read the Book of Mormon by the end of that year, promising that if we did that we would strengthen our testimony of the truthfulness of the book but we would also be blessed in our individual lives, spiritual blessings along with answers to prayer and so forth. So I took on the challenge myself and it was a wonderful experience in so many levels that I was almost sad to finish the book.



As I sat pondering on Sunday afternoon after attending church and a few meetings that included cub scouts I decided that I should re-read the Book of Mormon and this time I would keep a journal of what I read, maybe what it mean to me etc. Then I thought that maybe, just maybe I could share that with anyone who might be searching for something, an answer to a problem, even just having a bad day, that I it could maybe brighten their day, even brighten my own day.

I hope that this experience will be wonderful and selfishly something that will change my life...once again.

I often struggle with life and it's hard lessons which if I am honest enough I should confess can be my own fault and my struggle to procrastinate things and at times others "free agency" to make wrong choices big or small but affect the out comes of what life can bring. It is often a bitter-sweet journey and I haven"t mastered the "enjoy the journey" but would like to be more possitive with the journey I take.

I look back on my life of Fifty two years and I think I either dropped my life's map somewhere between the pre-existence and earth or I thought I wouldn't need it, that I could figure this out on my own. Often I would like to go back with what I know now and undo mistakes and for sure do better in school, become a Dr of some kind, make a difference and heal the world.



I pray that I will be blessed with a stronger testimony of the Savior of the World, that I will feel his love through the words of those who were commanded to keep this sacred record and that I will be a better person than I am today. I pray to find great joy in life, to love unconditionally my husband, my 4 children and my extended family and all of mankind who are also sons and daughters of a great, kind and loving Heavenly Father. I pray that I will learn of the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ and what it really means to me and my life and that I can be a better person worthy of his sacrifice and mercy and his love. I pray it will be a changing day in so many good ways.